我們這裡還有魚

I'm behind my own time.

毌忘七年前, 每天都在準備高考, 有段時期進展不大(如果用張玉珊對欣宜體重徘徊在一百三十多磅的說法,那是我的平台期 ),心情特低落。一切都像在谷底, 有天剛睡醒, 打開電視,正播放著《我們這裡還有魚》這歌,它是作曲人為當時台灣大地震寫的,聽罷有點感動,頓覺釋然,溫習重上軌道。自始就記住了這歌,以及其時的感動。

當年夜夜在書堆中睡, 想上大學固然是一大原因, 但不想被看扁更是原動力。沒有人會相信我會上到大學, 更莫說是所謂全港最好那所。那種全世界都看不起你, 只有自己相信自己的感覺真好。當然這種自我感覺良好是建基於成功, 沒有成功, 只有繼續被看扁, 繼續做underdog。但也不怕, 最重要是自信一天能使所有人跌破大眼鏡。只怕終於一天,就連自己都不信, 認命去。我知道這天離我不遠。

But for the time being, please let me have a little faith. Just a little faith, would you? I mean if I let those mofos, fucking dream killers killed my dream seven years agao, I would not have made it there back then. For the same reason, I will not let those mofos fucking kill my self-esteem now. If I ever wanted to amount to anything or change my star, this is it man. This is almost like the last shot. I'm not talking about my upcoming exams, it's more like the way of thinking and living I am talking about. I know I have been living on the god damn edge for the last six bloody years. But given my personal struggles, would you please motherfucking sucking wanking give me a little faith please. (Sorry about my honest selection of language here.)

希望我們這裡還有魚。(for fucks sake?)